I have never felt so hopeless.

I’m in a state of numb shock. At first the attack on October 7 overtook every other thought. It was an agony of grief and shock. But has time has gone on, I’ve come to allow the thought that Israel is as eliminationist as Hamas. It seems to me, through the sanctioned settler violence, the number of dead in Gaza, and the lack of imperative to free the hostages, that Israel is also not interested in peace. I have been a peace activist for 40 years. I have never felt so hopeless, and even question the existence of Israel as a Jewish state, terrifying to admit.