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In the Diaspora, I’m playing two lies and a truth

On the final night of my adult Birthright volunteer trip in Israel, I found myself longing to stay in my new home.
Meg Keene
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“Nothing had been easy. But for once, we’d belonged. We were home, but we were also together.”

Published: 12 November 2025

Last updated: 12 November 2025

On the last night of our adult Birthright volunteer trip in Israel, 20 of us gathered on the beach in Tel Aviv for dinner.

Our goal was to take a sunset dip, and then sit in the sand and drink. One last hurrah for our gaggle of 18 to 50-year-olds who had just survived a week of hard labour during Israel’s worst heat wave in two decades.

It was a perfect night — one of those evenings that shouldn’t exist, but somehow slip through the tangled web of the universe, demanding to be birthed into existence. And it was not the first time during the trip that a night like this had been laid into our waiting arms.

Being a Jew in 2025 means sometimes you have nothing left inside you but tears.

A few nights earlier, we’d sat out on the terrace of our hostel after Shabbat dinner. Just before midnight, someone asked how happy each person was, on a scale of one to 10.

We went around the table. “10,” one person said. “I can hardly keep my eyes open, but still 10,” another followed. “We’re drinking with friends on a summer night in Tel Aviv. There is nothing on this earth more perfect.” Tears came to my eyes as I had the gritty realisation that this was one of those pivotal memories around which our lives turn.

Then we played two truths and a lie. Of course the rules of the game preclude me from relaying any of our secrets, but we were in a bubble that night. We shared everything from unpopular political opinions to heartbreak, all while sitting next to a bomb shelter. We knew that if the sirens went off, we'd be a few feet away from safety, but there was no place more secure than the space we’d made together.

I laughed till I cried that night, I think we all did.

We all knew what it was like to make ourselves small. To polish ourselves so that we could be seen by the non-Jewish world in a way that was tolerated.

This last evening together by the sea was the same, fragile and perfect. We easily found a large table, right on the beach. The long limbed 20-somethings clambered back and forth between the waves and their drinks, barely-there bikinis showing off their tanned skin. We had Arak. We had Glenfiddich. Without a doubt an 18-year-old ordered a Smirnoff Ice. There was hummus and lamb and pita and fries. There was laughter and conversation and the ease of being known.

Meg and her Birthright group on the beach in Israel (Image: supplied).
Meg and her Birthright group on the beach in Israel (Image: supplied).

We hailed from different parts of the diaspora, South Africa, England, France, and all over the United States. We all knew what it was like to make ourselves small. To polish ourselves so that we could be seen by the non-Jewish world in a way that was tolerated. To cut ourselves into tiny pieces, so we could show the parts of us deemed acceptable, even to the people we loved.

But for a week we’d been allowed to just be. To lay down our armour, and let ourselves be gazed at. To not edit our thoughts or circumscribe our jokes.

We’d woken to a city of wailing sirens and ran to bomb shelters. We’d stood on the border of Gaza on blood-soaked land, trying to absorb the atrocities committed against our sisters and brothers. We’d marched for the return of the hostages. We’d agonised over the humanitarian crisis in Gaza in a million conversations. We’d drunk with IDF soldiers who were in between awful deployments.

Nothing had been easy. But for once, we’d belonged. We were home, but we were also together.

And now, it was the end.

When it came time to pay, I started crying. The trip was over and I felt ripped in two. As one of the oldest people at the table, I wanted to play at being Wonder Woman — perfect, beautiful, infallible — but instead, I was crumbling.

I felt the edges of myself blurring into the air, into the humid warmth that had turned my hair into rounded curls for the first time in my life.

We stood up as a group and walked along the water, the moonlight dancing along the waves. We navigated to HaYarkon Street, where my tears started falling harder.

“I’m so embarrassed,” was all I managed to get out, as if I was stuck in a loop. “I’m so sorry.”

One of the 22-year-olds in the group touched my shoulder. “I think you need to cry for a little while.”

“But—”

I looked around our mixed group, blushing. Because even fully grown, the idea of crying in front of boys made me want to sink into the ground and bury myself alive.

“No.” This time, she was firmer. “It’s been a big week. It’s your first time in Israel. It’s probably the first time you’ve ever fully felt at home, and now you have to leave.”

I felt the edges of myself blurring into the air, into the humid warmth that had turned my hair into rounded curls for the first time in my life.

“We see you,” she said. “That’s the thing.”

I sobbed. We walked past the unruly mix of dilapidated low-slung buildings from the 70s, and soaring glass towers. I sobbed. We listened to the roar of the sea. I sobbed. And all the while, the group walked peacefully alongside me.

Everyone understood. Being a Jew in 2025 means sometimes you have nothing left inside you but tears.

Late on that Shabbat night, one of the younger men in our group confided in me, “You wear your brain on your sleeve, but keep your heart somewhere deeper and safer.” And then, he added: “Whatever reservations I have about the war, or about Israel’s government, I certainly no longer express to non-Jewish friends.”

I nodded quickly. “Same,” I said. And then instead of moulding and forming and creating myself, instead of playing two truths and a lie, I just said something true.

“We belong here,” I said. “We’re home. We belong here, all together.”

I didn’t need a single lie to cover myself. Like Eve in the garden, I wasn’t embarrassed by my nakedness.

Until I ate the apple. Left our group. Went through customs. Went back to Galut. Walked onto the streets of the diaspora.

Here, where it’s two lies and a truth.

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About the author

Meg Keene

Meg Keene

Meg Keene is a two time bestselling author and the founder of apracticalweding.com, where she served as Editor-In-Chief for 15 years. She's currently writing her debut novel.

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    Lior12 November at 06:09 pm

    That was beautiful Meg. Blessed to of shared the moonlight with all of you. Ive worked with many volunteer groups before but this experience far exceeded all of the others.